Hey Terry, just read this post now, so sorry to hear of your loss, life isnt really fair and as they say all the good one go young!
i can understand your pain, a few years back, my grandmother who basically raised me (mum has always been a mess) passed on, she was the most beautifula and dear person in my life other than my wife and kids, i laid with her in hospital and stroked her hair when she was barely clinging on (massive hole in her heart) and told her she needed to go and she died their with me while i reassured her and held her, still upsets me to this day...i really hope mate that you are handling things ok and your family are being supportive, and hope as a family you all stick together and are there for each other...deepest sympathies mate...